Today

Haven’t had coffee for more than 24 hours, the world feels soft and dull, its been raining for the past few days, it sorta puts me in the mood to write, i’m not much of a writer, i thought writing was simple, think of an idea, and put that idea to work with words, but then i found myself staring at a blank canvass for more than 3 hours, i just sat there thinking of something to write, i was told that i should carry a pen and paper with me and write down an idea as soon as it pops up into my head, but i find carrying a pen and paper with me all the time is a bit weird so i used my phone instead which by the way is a bad idea since i accidentally deleted the draft i wrote earlier.

I went out today to see a movie, the rain didn’t stop me at all, i found the shades of gray to be quite amusing, it puts the whole world into a melodramatic mood, dark and depressing, but apart from that i think its quite beautiful, its the kind of mood that sets a movie into motion, i told myself that i need to go out more, been stuck at home most of the time, i guess its time to take my brain out for a walk and let it breathe, the abundance of noise slowly crept in while roaming around, i found myself staring at a sea of faces, different shapes and different sizes, i had this lost look in my face while looking around, it had a surreal feeling to it, to be surrounded by a crowd of strangers, to be stranger yourself, i guess going out today did help me a bit, because now I’m here typing like crazy while listening to the rain outside around 2 in the morning, (yes i’m weird you don’t have to stress that out) i guess now i’ll be able to fill that canvass with words and hopefully i’ll be able to finish some of the draft that i wrote a couple of weeks ago.

Today was weird, weird is good.